Should I mind what bothers me so much?
I'm in a place in my heart, where things don't feel so right. If I were to stay home in my world, it wouldn't affect me as much. But, I'm not a hermit. I'm caring and outgoing. And by nature, at times I want to be around others. The hearts of many has become undesirable. I was once told, when something doesn't feel right, it isn't right. I'm bargaining with myself with the adjustments I have to make for me. I don't ask for much. I'm grateful for Christ and my family, they are my refuge. I'm warming, yet different, and I require my space. There is a time for everything. I tell myself, time goes by fast, in just a few months, it won't even matter. I'm trying to deal with this rationally, if I could just be left alone.
Don't take a meek approach for weakness. Perhaps it's the manner of being polite.