Saturday, April 11, 2009

In the Moment

If I could be any place right now, I'd be here. Relaxing and listening to the sounds of the ocean, dwelling on the sounds of nature, echoing closely. Taking in the fresh comfortable breeze off of the water and yes, the day is sunny with temperature degrees at exactly 81.

My thoughts would be deep, reflecting on how life has been good to me. Indeed there's been a lot of rough times, but God has brought me through it. When the going got tough, somehow I managed to find the strength to go on. Hoping to make it through when there was no relief in sight. I've had my hopeless moments, but thank goodness, I can wake up to a new day.

I appreciate being loved and cared about and for the support system that I have. When in doubt, the energy of it makes me feel that I can make it. I know the strength is none of my own, but of the superior power that I don't take for granted.
So, when I'm faced with an obstacle, I reflect on the trials that God has already delivered me from, I look forward, I don't look back, and I manage make it.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


Today is a better day and I am so greatful. I can appreciate every good moment. A moment that I'm feeling special, because everything is alright. I accomplished what I set out to to do. Completion makes me feel whole.

Looking at something half empty or half full complexes me. I feel disturbed. To make it right is self gratification. Not trying to impress anyone but, myself. However I am greatful for those around me that notice and offer an encouraging word, which always seem to be on time.

In this life, there will be ups and downs. When it's upward, grab a hold, cling tight and grasp all the energy you can from it. Strengthen yourself on that positive feedback. So, if in case, if faced with a downward, you can go through it.

Friday, March 13, 2009


Monday, March 9, 2009

Be Impressive

Make an impression when you enter into a room. Someone should notice you have just walked in. It's not necessary how well you look or the clothes you wear, but the energy that flows from within. Positve energy is always welcomed, it feels the atmosphere with warmth. People should be glad you showed up. It's better to be seen, than heard.

Can you speak like a mouse, where silence isn't interrupted. Don't tarnish the gold, so many make reference too.

Sunday, March 1, 2009



Should I mind what bothers me so much?

I'm in a place in my heart, where things don't feel so right. If I were to stay home in my world, it wouldn't affect me as much. But, I'm not a hermit. I'm caring and outgoing. And by nature, at times I want to be around others. The hearts of many has become undesirable. I was once told, when something doesn't feel right, it isn't right. I'm bargaining with myself with the adjustments I have to make for me. I don't ask for much. I'm grateful for Christ and my family, they are my refuge. I'm warming, yet different, and I require my space. There is a time for everything. I tell myself, time goes by fast, in just a few months, it won't even matter. I'm trying to deal with this rationally, if I could just be left alone.

Don't take a meek approach for weakness. Perhaps it's the manner of being polite.

Sunday, February 15, 2009


For the first time in my life, I have taken to my heart, this is such a beautiful time. This is a month to reflect on afro-american forefathers. A month that many will celebrate throughout our nation. I am proud by nature, but the feeling of being an afro-american has become more sincere. I think of what it took our culture to become as who we are today. Althouhg it was then, it remains to be a reflection of me. I find myself searching for movies reflecting back on past times in America, when things weren't so great for afro-americans. I want a deeper understanding on the actions that took place, that remain in a memory for someone to want to write about it and in many events make a movie. It has become more of a discussion with others, but not reflecting so much on the negative. But, the postive that came from the sufferings. People that were oppressed, yet strong willed and determined to have a better life. The instinct of intelligence to become inventors even though many were deprived of learning to read and write. Education wasn't allowed for them to have, that made them want it more. A tool that would strengnthen their understanding. The movie Men of Honor, a man struggling to pass an obstacle course to become a Navy Seal. When asked" why do you want it so bad", he said, "because they don't want me to have it". He endured more to become a Navy Seal, but, he became one.

Saturday, February 14, 2009


It's a new day and a new year and I have a different outlook on life. I've grown and matured, I am not the same. My thinking has been renewed and suddenly I have a different outlook on where I'm going and how I plan to get there. I took some time out for me and what a refreshing it has made. Am I always right? No. There are many mistakes I've made. All my judgments have not been correct.
Is there anyone perfect? We are a flawed species, we don't always get it right the first time. Before a new born baby learns to walk, it stumbles and falls. Never stopping because of a land on the floor, but getting back up to try it again. Determined to make it happen. I have learned to deal with my frustrations differently.

What does it take to get a person to see, whom may feel their vision is clear? Self deliverance fortifies the soul. I am no longer in a hurry. I can't rush the future because timing has it's place. I've redirected my energy to where it matters.
Life is puzzling, trying to make the pieces fit. Should you go this way instead of that way, isn't always the question, just hoping to survive at whatever is thrown at you. My concern is not what your are doing, I long to make things better.